Keys and Locks

I'm around to turn out the lights at night
and to make sure the door is locked
so we can all sleep soundly
I make sure the bad people stay on the outside
It's my job to check the thermostat
and hang shelves
put things together
be handy
It's my duty
to make you all smile
though sometimes I do a poor job of it
I'm not perfect
but then again
Who is

Untitled November

You
think
I am
over it
but
I am
not
I
think
this scar
will
never
heal
Do
you understand
that
this
has changed me
and I
may
never ever
be
the same
again
when
my mind
is at rest
it automatically
turns to
you
foolish
thing
I am
But it doesn't
matter
My little baby will be here in
three days
to set
my mind at
ease

Ask Me What Is Wrong

It's everywhere
your happiness
like the world is rubbing it in my face
Grinding it into my soul
now when I should be occupied
with my own coming joy
it's everywhere I turn
Your happiness
I wait for five days to pass
and work on working on

Magic Trumps Science Every Time

It's not about a scene
or what others think
computer science
is nothing compared to the magic we shared
my inventions fall short
and a dashing hero steals you away
I am the villain
the rogue
the fiend
with maniacal laugh
and crazy ideas
why won't this time machine rip open space
and hurl me to a far flung past
or a distant future
your spell is still stuck around my head
like a cloudy halo
obsessed with checking my internet stats
my typing skills are fading faster than your memory

Jester, Clown Prince, Buffoon

Connection
what could it mean
the clock is ticking
Getting closer to those days
time is running out
Things are becoming more complicated
mind bending
heart breaking
Tears falling
I kept these tied with a bow
one day
maybe
you will want it all back
maybe I am just a fool

I Need To Shave For

I am itchy with conspiracies
bristling with theories
restless with hypotheses
mind filled with so many half truths
Tired of this age of Social networking self importance
No one cares what you ate for lunch
or how far you ran today
no matter how much you tweet it
Facebook it
Scream it into the machine
Fictions
Turning pages
looking for clues inside text
Do you know the way to bring back
A dying art form
It lays in my hands
Breathing its last breathe

Hide and Go Seek

Are you as sorry as I am
Age starting to show
I grow into a man
A father
will I be able to see past this
Can I take all I've done
all I've seen
all I've been
and use it
To shape a young mind
To teach
My son
my son
those words make me shake with anticipation
Will he save me from me

Friday Fugue State

The name is nothing
slay dragons in sleep
Dress dark for backstage invisibility
Assassins stand ready
silent
like killing from 1000 miles away
If Big Brother is watching us
it is our duty to watch Big Brother watching us
transparent is truth
Babble on and on
Construct art from random thoughts
Deconstruct the two parties
in the best interest of a nation
Can you read between the lines
Can you see the subtext
it is faultless
the name is nothing

Fish Bone

Lead a liquid life
Flowing and adapting
To curves and bumps in the river bed
banking on forever moving
Never taking root
always leaving silt

Grease Paint

Why wear masks
when it is no longer late October
I don't know your true face anymore
I think I have painted my version of it
Stuck it in the gallery in my mind
I will throw turpentine on that canvas
After your day in the sun
when your hand sparkles
And you seal it with a kiss
And a after party fuck
I wish I knew how to forget
Or not imagine

Time Travel Can Be Torture Because

It's all winding backwards
As gears grind forward like teeth in sleep
green light arcs
from anything metal
this machine lurches time
everything moving in reverse
Creating a blur of nausea
I am immortal this way
Traveling
Looking for lost love
In my own timeline
You drip in slow motion
And break my heart repeatedly
Over and over again
I replay scenes
until the pain is me
All me
It's not too late to learn from this
I keep the wounds fresh
Lest I forget

This insomnia

Has me exhausted
Spent
worn down to the bone
At night in the dark
My mind just runs
won't stop
Images drilling deep into me
Haunting me
I see multiple timelines split
and follow each one to see what the outcome
reveals
testing this machine in my head
Until I realize that there is no more time
To shut my eyes
and I give in to the waking dreams
And go about the day
A walking shell
Searching for sleep

What is it you ask

It's the handshake
the earthquake
The heartbreak
The love we fake
The choices we make
It's the song we sing
The wedding rings
a multitude of things
the mistakes we bring
It's the cool autumn breeze
the way I seize
It's the hope we steal
the feelings we feel
that makes this
all
too
real

I Am So Hungry

Sometimes there is a look on her face
Like she is so sad
and she doesn't know why
complications complicate
idiots and fools dream of shiny new futures
I snuggle deeper in my sleep
Throwing lightning
Ready for that new life that will be mine