I Use To Think It Was Forever

Do you miss me like I miss you
Search for your face on crowded city streets
Wake from dreams expecting your kiss
Stars burn blue and cold
And have no memories
Do you still hear your phone ring and wish for my voice on the other end
Have I become a broken thing
Crawling in circles
Wishing for things that have come and gone
My days seem empty as pools in winter

Some One Lies Bleeding

Say something awful
Put the metaphorical bullet right into my brain
Just tell me to fuck off
Wrap that poetical noose around my neck
I am stuck
In a programmed loop
Repeating bad habits
A worker bee searching for pollen
In gardens long dead
infected with hive mind syndrome
Buzzing through days
Say something awful
Or anything at all
My brain scrambles
Looking for a rock in the storm
that is the chaos you left me
Here I lie bleeding
Waiting for your words or kiss
To return me to the fight
I am misery without them

Cloud Computers Dream Too

I am resigned
To this changing
Air
pushing
Nanomachines
In and out of my blood
Building new circuits
Making machine out of man
Correcting the misfired neurons
So love is but a distant memory
If a memory at all
There probably is no room for it
Among all the circuitry and webbing of wire
Soft glow of blue and red LED light
Cooling fans in place of once breathing lungs
You wouldn't know me
Would I know you
Would you miss the human that was me
Heart beating beating beating
Pumping coolant to keep these processors cool

Forensic Science

Sidewalk chalk and childhood games
Cars speed by without pause
The air has chilled
As you move on and on
Forgetting me and my confessions
Is your soul threadbare
Scrubbed clean
How do you dream
Sleep at night
Laugh drunkenly
Was I that easy to wash off
Wag away
My memory goes on and on
A novel dog eared
Over read
Dawn crashes around me
Your day begins far away
I assume it's with a smile
And never a thought turned my way

Cross Bones

Technicolor
You are
Rainbows in cloudy skies
I know tomorrow will be just
Another
day and nothing more
That stone on your hand
Is the weight on my neck
Pulling me toward treasure chests and shipwrecks
Gold teeth
Eye patch
Cutlass rusted dull
I love like gold in watery graves
Buried and in secret

Walk in the Park

Blue sky black
Heart attack
Girl you're never coming back
Clouds open up
Heart erupts
did my love corrupt
Field of green
Summer stream
Were you just a dream
Blue sky black
Thunder crack
Girl you're never coming back

Paper Trails

Last night I saw three shooting stars
That was three wishes I got to make
And though two of them will never come true
Only the future will tell if the other will
I forget daily that I am growing older
Eased into my age
It takes someone else's youth to remind me
But I'd buy more meteors blazing across the sky
More coins in a well
To have some of those days back
And I often wonder if your kisses miss my lips

You Can Always Go Back

Susquehanna valley I turned my back on you
At the age of 18
I fled east and then south
Never looking back
Your hidden charms were lost on me
Turned my back on your rolling hills. and corn fields
The quiet towns that filled my youth
The Pennsylvania Dutch mysteries
Susquehanna valley it was 17 years before I returned home
Here I am with open eyes
You have changed as much and as little as I have
I nestle in my home here
This little old house that creaks when I walk
Waiting on autumn
Apple harvests
Winter and her cold breath

Going Live

Worlds are ending they say
I don't know
I'm the resident idiot
The family fool
Tinkering away in my flooding basement
Fiddling with broken machines
Find me
Find me
They say worlds are ending
But I'm not sure I believe them
I've been too busy finding new ones

Life Raft Deflated

It's ok
On days like these
When premonitions fill me with dread
It's ok
The need to run is so great it blinds
Always searching desert sands
For buried treasure
This burning inability to be happy
Or content
I know your future is great
I know it
Can feel it in my bones
I am lost
Like my country
My generation
Hopelessly flailing in deep water
Waiting for the sharks
I hope these words find you well
These words
Do you read them
Will you read them
Who will read them
Am I gasping last breaths to no one
I can't tell anymore if those are mermaids hands
Or sharks teeth
brushing against my calf