My Favorite Musician Knows How I Feel

I said
I want love
I said
I want to be wrapped up in pale white arms
I said
just shoot me in the heart
you said
fuck you
you said
something mean
you said
let me rub it all in your face
I jump in puddles
pools
lakes
streams
and can not drown
even with your hand pushing my head down
even with your razor blade carving my cheeks
blood in the water
blood in the sink
on your teeth
my soul dripping from your spit
I said I want love
I said I want to be wrapped up in pale white arms
I said I want to forget
so lobotomize me
with short skirts
cleavage
and a few shots of vodka
you  said fuck you
and something mean
then pulled the trigger