I Dream Red and White

I've roughly handled
fragile things
and they tumbled
shattered, broken
fifty or one hundred pieces
that super glue won't
Hold
this puzzle
that I can't
put back together
sweet words
and tender thoughts
can't overshadow
mindless actions

I dream red and white
and words that move so
fast across my screen
with all windows open and
music blaring
I dream fear
and of being or
living the American Dream
I dream golden hair
and porcelain skin

I wake to empty room
and cold sheets
and another day
of anxiety
and hesitation

The world is a mystery
to me
and time flows
like the Colorado River
cutting a Grand Canyon
through my heart
through my soul
through my brain

I dream
the past
and false realities
and I wake
not knowing if today
is the day